Oh Goody. More Surgery in My Future

Update: Well, boys and girls, I’m gonna have right shoulder surgery. Should have had it in 2013. Rotator cuff is fully torn—actually, my rotator cuff has completely disingrated and I have dead (atrophied) muscles. There’s a new arthroscopic surgery procedure they’ll be doing. It’s a Superior Capsule Reconstruction, using a dead person’s derma. Ugh!!

Jan 6 is the date I chose for outpatient surgery. Dec 19 starts pre op. But I need to start preparing mentally and physically for this operation. Recovery will take SIX MONTHS! 😪

The doctor told me very flatly that my rotator cuff has disintegrated and that my muscles are dead. The hemoral head is riding high because the rotator cuff has disintegrated. I blinked when he told me that. I knew my rotator cuff was messed up. Hell, I diagnosed it from reading about my symptoms online. But I had no idea it was torn, and I certainly had no idea it was gone. 

I had reached my hands over my head when it first ripped. Pain struck and it hurt like a bitch. But sadly, I also fell, hard, on that same shoulder on concrete a couple of weeks later. I couldn’t stop my fall, and I knew I was going to land on my poor shoulder. Bam! That’s when the pain was so severe that I couldn’t sleep on that shoulder, and I couldn’t lift my arm more than a few inches. That blunt force trauma did me in. My guess is that’s when the rotator cuff completely detached. 

My doctor told me there wasn’t much they could do in the olden days. They used to use metal. Now they take a dead person’s skin and reconstruct the cuff. 

Dr. Ninh showed me how the hemoral head is riding high on my X-ray. It’s hitting bone; hence, the pain. What pisses me off is that I have been talking about my shoulder since I got insurance in 2015. Finally got an X-ray in 2015. But nothing came of it. Why didn’t they notice the high riding hemoral head and that no rotator cuff existed back then-?? They probably didn’t take the right views?? Don’t know what the hell happened, but they sure f****d it up. 

But luckily I got an MRI approved for my shoulder in 2016 from my PCP. So all this bad stuff showed up. Then I had new X-rays taken, and voilá! There it was!

Check out the pic. I could identify the humeral head easily since I saw my X-ray. I put text over the humeral head. It’s held in its proper place by the rotator cuff, which is that band going across. Again, I put text on that band. I have NO band. Zilch. It’s gone. So the humeral head is riding too high and striking bone. Hence, the pain. The only recourse is surgery. 

But my meniscus surgery was a walk in the park compared to this shoulder surgery. There’s lots of pain afterwards, but that’s not worrying me as much as the fact that my dominant arm will be in a sling. 

For over a month, I won’t be able to use my hand or lift my elbow. Dressing, feeding myself, bathing, brushing my teeth, cooking, going to the bathroom, sleeping… doing every day simple tasks will be exceedingly difficult. I will need special tops with Velcro. My sister suggested ponchos. I checked out a few online; they might be a good way to go and I can wear them after my recovery—except I won’t be recovering until at least June, and that’s not poncho weather. I haven’t figured out the bra situation. And honey, with this hourglass figure of mine, I definitely need to wear a bra!

Gals, have any of you had shoulder surgery? I need ideas. I won’t be able to drive, go to the store, make coffee… and I won’t have help because another family member is seriously injured. 

Any suggestions?


12 thoughts on “Oh Goody. More Surgery in My Future

  1. New Journey says:

    Oh my….but you will be so much better in the end and the pain will be gone….I will send you good energy, next year this time you will be hanging Christmas lights form the highest branches on the tree….as far as clothing….what about a couple tops with the bras built in…just a thought…swim suit tops are easier than bras to put on…or sports bras a size bigger than you wear for easy on and off….or have someone build a bra shelf in the ponchos for the first few weeks….I feel for you as I would have the same problem…glad the surgery will be arthroscopic so not as invasive as opening your should up….really happy to see you back on here…thought you packed up and went away….xxxkat

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    • fithotbod says:

      Well, the odd thing is that I do have use of my arm and the pain isn’t that bad. But it felt weak. Had problems lifting a gallon of milk out of the trunk. I’d have pain, but it felt like inflammation… So I don’t know… I had no idea my rotator cuff was gone! I mean, that’s crazy.

      I was thinking about a bathing suit top. I thought about the kind that ties around the neck, forgetting I won’t be able to tie anything. The only kind of bra I could put on is a step in kind. I’ve only read about those. Haven’t researched it yet.

      A six months recovery. OMG. The PT told me my knee would take 2 months to recover. Eleven months later, I still have minor edema.


      • fithotbod says:

        I’m actually not sure. I’ve read that this procedure doesn’t do well if there’s arthritis. I translated the MRI report, which I thought mentioned arthritis. I have more questions for the doctor.


      • fithotbod says:

        The funny thing I don’t hurt all the time. I have to be careful though, and even though I’ve been working out for a year, I don’t do a bicep curl more than 20 lbs. I’ve upped most of my weights for the rest of my body, but I don’t dare do that with my bicep curls. My shoulder can’t take it.

        It’s so weird, but I am able to use my shoulder. You’d think I wouldn’t be able to. But I think it’s affecting my neck and therefore affecting my back. I feel a tightness around my shoulder blade. I worry that something is going on with my left rotator cuff too. I need an MRI there too, just to be on the safe side.


      • fithotbod says:

        Oh you did? Did you have surgery? How did you tear yours?

        Oh, when I first tore it by putting my arms overhead, it hurt! And my movement was limited. But then when I fell on that shoulder while it was still hurting (about two weeks later), that was BAD! I couldn’t move my arm. Try driving… I could barely get the key in the ignition, but I couldn’t turn the key at all. I couldn’t sleep on that shoulder. There was so much pain involved in getting dressed. And I still kept working at a physical job at the dog kennel. I must have been nuts. But time off wasn’t really allowed. (One other time I was sick to my stomach and my boss insisted I come in to work. Cuz if I didn’t come in, she had to do my job and no way was she gonna do that.) And if I didn’t work, I didn’t get paid.

        Worst job ever. I loved working with the dogs, and I was sick of desk jobs, but for the rest… The whole thing was a huge mistake.


  2. New Journey says:

    NO I passed on surgery….I tore my shoulder in 90 or 91 moving big rocks on my porch…I am a rock hound at heart…LOL I went to a surgeon and he said the quickest way to heal was micro surgery.. of course I asked what other options I had….well it took over six weeks and I wore an immobilizer for 3 -4 weeks of that…couldn’t raise my arm, put on a bra, barley able to pull up my pants…LOL I waited till I got to work and one of the girls hooked my bra….I drove a stick, had to lift my arm/hand over to the gearshift knob so I could at least shift painfully to get around…know that its been 20+ years….I have arthritis in my shoulder joint, and can’t hardly sleep on it at all…but no surgery…in retrospect, I should of done the surgery…

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    • fithotbod says:

      Just saw this today! Geez. Sorry about that. But I wish I could pass on surgery. I have weakness and minor pain now. When I fell on my already injured shoulder, I was a mess. I couldn’t move my arm, dress, drive, shampoo my hair… well, I did all those things but only by gritting my teeth and dealing with the pain. I never got to take off work (which was physical labor), plus I had dogs to care for… Later that year, I sprained my right wrist… 2013 was a hellish year.

      I’m able to move my arm now. I really don’t want surgery. There’s a part of me that worries having surgery is a mistake. Recovery will be six months to a year. But to have my dominant arm in a sling for at least a month? To deal with the pain and to have only one arm? To cook, clean, drive…? Right. So I’ve been depressed a bit.


    • fithotbod says:

      Not bad. Bored out of my mind. Came back home Tuesday. Can’t drive until at least Valentine’s Day. So stuck home. Ugh. Looks like very few people read my post about shoulder surgery. Oh well. 😟


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